Ramblings From The Ignorant Wife

Nyonya P here...

And so, apparently, my dear husband had productively produced two writings which I really enjoyed reading. Though we have known each other for almost 10 years, we are still two very different human beings. And being an ignorant person, it is not always easy for me to think like him and eventually to empathize him. His writings help me a lot to know what kind of burden that he is going through and find a way to support him though at the end of the day, I know very well that I would never be able to think like him.

Maybe you're wondering on why do I use the word ignorant to describe myself.
Online dictionary (well, who doesn't use it nowadays?) define ignorant as:
1. lacking knowledge or awareness in general; uneducated or unsophisticated
2. (informal) discourteous or rude

My attitude inclined to being discourteous or rude, not because I meant to be rude or being mean to others. I am just a very frank, blunt, brutally honest person. I have no ability to hide my feeling or emotions. Hiding my emotions requires a lot of energy which I may not have. You can feel very safe with me as I will not pretend to be your friends if I don't like you as one and I will never stab someone from the back. If I have to, then I will stab you from the front. Well, sounds very scary isn't it? To make things worse, I only seems to have two emotions, happy and angry. I can feel sad, but often times, I am too logical to get my feeling be swayed by sadness. Even PMS only managed to make me hungrier than normal...not more emotional.

Honestly, it is not easy for a guy to fall in love with my character and even willing to marry me. First of all, that person must be strong enough to handle my blunt comment that can come anytime, anywhere and at any situation. As much as I want to empathize with others, my tongue would had moved faster before my brain or my heart could think. So, if you were ever hurt by my words, trust me, I really never meant to hurt you.

And one day, like in any fairy-tales, I met my dear husband. He is just the total opposite of me. He has lots of emotions, wide range of feeling and he definitely thinks a lot. He always thinks that he is so weak, but I beg to be differ. A weak man, would not be able to withstand a mean, ignorant wife like me.

For me, he is really a strong person.
He is strong enough to handle constant frank comments from his wife.
He is strong enough to have that much neurons 'firing' in his brain at the same time, and still being 'normal'.
He is strong enough to suppress his emotions so as not hurting others.
He is strong enough to carry the burden of being a perfectionist, living in an imperfect world.
He is strong enough to love me and accept me the way I am despite all my flaws and slowly he is changing me to be a better person.

And there's a brief introduction of me and a glimpse of what I thought of my dear husband. I tried writing my blogs before and always left abandoned. Hopefully, this time round, I can be more consistent in my writing.

Cheers,
Nyonya P