Time runs very fast but it is difficult to keep up, at least with my expectations.
Last Friday was my birthday. It is strange that I feel stressed, but maybe it is not strange at all as I have experienced before. The feelings of feeling bad as I didn't keep contact with a lot of my friends but they still send a message.
It is quite weird that I am tense and tend to delay checking the messages as I do not know how to respond. A simple thank you would be enough but I want to be more.
During travel, timel is also running quite fast. Many times my eyes were closed
It was an interesting trip where we learn to be in the midst of a jam several times.
Going to office today was tough. I already feel stressed as I just starred several times without progressing. It feels like things are getting worse. But thankfully, I was reminded to read my writings before. As I read the last 2 months’ notes, almost everyday I was stressed, at least equal if not more stressed. So it is not true that today is the day with highest stress or highest level of accumulated stress. It is just something I need to live with it and accept.
I just need to remember that, if Screwtape is writing to Wormwood about me, he will write that the effective way to influence me is by lying that today is the worst day while it is not. It just tried to broke my hope which is why things feel like hopeless, my mind can’t think while in actual, I have gone through a lot. Also, there is my wife who always encourages and supports. So let’s renew the hope and move forward.
No comments:
Post a Comment