Why is it so difficult to write?

Written on 1 August 2017

Recently, I am stoning a lot when it comes to writing be it short or long. It can be as short as for replying a whatsapp message. It can be also in terms of writing report or update or test plan. 

Somehow it is stuck there and the more I think about what to write, the more stuck I am. My wife helped by asking me, which part makes me afraid? Is it because I could not think properly and so I am afraid of the poor quality? Or is it because there are several alternatives that I cannot decide? Or is it lack of knowledge or data that can be resolved by some learning or data collection or data analysis?

Often I found that I don't write simply because I don't think I can write. In other word, I already condition myself that I could not write or think clearly. 

Now the hard part is that what do I do after knowing this? What kind of strategy I need to adapt? What doesn't work? For example, delaying until tomorrow or other time usually backfires as I do not know what to write and by that time the pressure for writing something nice have gone up.

I also want to test by writing this. It is not easy since I do not have a structurized topic. The difference perhaps is that I do not pressurize myself too much for writing this. Also, I am aware that writing here is difficult. So I have lower expectation on that. 

How do I bring this forward? I am not sure. The pressure is still high. God's grace is always available. It depends on whether I have the faith to rely on Him fully.