So What?

These two days I feel very useless. I feel that I am so stupid and cannot do anything. Well it is not something new. So I need to dispute again by asking so what?

Remember, what do I gain by scolding myself for being stupid? It may be true that I am stupid now. But then so what? I need to accept that it is the reality. Then next is to ask whether I want to change or not. 

If I am content with the current situation, then there is no need to change and be happy about it. 

If I am not happy that I am like that, do the actions that will improve. If by setting too ambitious goals hinder it, reduce the goals until it becomes the next one small thing.

Either way there is no use of me scolding. There is also no use of me stoning or being confused on what to do. 

And remember to insist that this is not going to be easy. It is hard. But it is harder if I choose to scold myself instead of making decision whether to change and what to change first. 

If it is easy, it has been done long time ago. The fact that it is still a problem now indicates it is tough. So if it feels tough, then it is the right direction. It is when I feel relieved by running a way that is not correct. 

Reducing perfectionism is also not possible by thinking about it. It is by many practice that it may reduce a little bit. 

So rest a while is fine, but afterwards, get back up. Do one small thing, keep starting, know where to stop and wrap up despite the imperfection. Keep persevering when thinking of giving up. Remember, giving up means lose. Giving my best may still lose but there is no regret. And most importantly, giving best means progress no matter how small it is.