Learning to make decision

Written on 26 July 2017
In the past two days, I stoned really a lot. Yesterday was very tough, today is tough as well. For every message that I need to reply, I think very long, it can be up to 1 hour. Some is even only replied after 1 day.

My mind wonders with the pro and cons of each alternative and I could not bear any of the consequences. That is the first problem. The second one is I become angry to myself when I cannot make decision. I rate myself as a very bad person. So the energy is consumed in being angry and being defensive at the same time instead of spent for encouraging myself to take the risk and remember that no decision is perfect. Even a good decision for me may not be good one for others.

These two days also remind me on how to bounce back. I become very down to the point that I have a pity on myself and try to look sad. It is as if I want everybody to understand that I cannot stand this situation.

Another lesson from these two days are the more I want to get out from the situations immediately, the worse the feeling is. It is a reminder that if something does not work, then we may need to go into reverse direction instead of keep pushing and expect immediate results. This will just lead to frustration.

So when things do not work, find alternative. When I could not decide, remember the past lessons. On how at the end my decision after 2 hours or even 1 day are not much different than the original one. So the idea is that am I willing to save time? If at the end I still need to decide and the consequence is still there, maybe it is better to just decide quickly and move forward instead of living in regrets.

And remember, if things still do not work, it does not mean that tomorrow cannot.