Focusing on what I can do

Written on 21 May 2018

There are too many things I cannot do. I don’t like that. As I progress more in each day, I found more things that I cannot do. Some of the things are not new, some are the things I was used to be able to do. As a result, I become angry to myself.

By this time, I already know that being angry to myself does not work. Even when I am not angry, thinking alone about the things I cannot do will not make me suddenly be able to do.

So let’s focus on what I can do. Apparently there are many things I can do that I ignored when I focused on what I cannot do. Those things may not be hard. It is just that I focused too much on my inability that I no longer have the energy to do what I can.

It is good if I can find how to do differently. At the same time, it is one of my struggles to change the way I do. So I may enter stoning phase again if I focus on how to do things differently. It is still important. But let’s focus on what I can do. Two examples, one at home, one at office. At home, I am not good at carrying my baby or calming her. But I can help in preparing the milk. At office, I cannot deliver as much as others. But I can give my best and do the things I can. It may be very small such as cleaning my table. Or starting again to scribble some mind map or writing an encouragement to myself like this.