Bouncing back cannot be just once

Last night I was motivated. And today I self-sabotage myself again. I woke up later than I wanted, prepared longer than I wanted before going to church. Afterwards, I kept delaying things to do, until now. During afternoon nap, I struggled. And after dinner it was a struggle too.

This shows that bouncing back cannot be just once. Two reasons at least. If it is just once, the pressure of not falling again is too high. And if it is just once, maybe it is not really bouncing back as after all, a ball can bounce many times.

I have many fears that I struggle with. Fear of failure; fear of looking bad in front of people; fear of imperfection; fear of being not good enough; fear of conflict; fear of being rejected; fear of uncertainty; fear of pain; fear of helplessness.

So I need to be patient. One fear is already difficult enough; let alone multiple fears. Also, let’s remember to think what one small thing can I change or can I do under the present reality? When I say I cannot stand the current problem, let’s dispute back and remind us that I can stand it and it is not awful.