Do I really want to solve problems?

If yes, then change approach. Hating myself does not work. Scolding myself does not get me anywhere.

Today is challenging again. In the morning I needed to decide whether I take a childcare leave as my daughter has flu for the first time. Somehow all the options are not good for me. So it took me 3 hours to decide. And then after that I still think it was not good enough. I tried to run away by sleeping for 15 mins but it did not help. The negative emotion is still there and so I become even angrier.

But getting angry does not get me anywhere. It is tiring for both myself and for my wife, even more for her.

So let me ask myself again? Do I want to recover? If yes, move on instead of hating ir scolding myself. If not, ask again, am I aware of the consequence? Am I deceived by the immediate gratification and unable to see the long-term damage?

So let’s find ways to solve my problems, one of which is low confidence, and not by being angry to myself.