As expected, things are not as easy when it comes to implementation. Last night I was excited with the new learning of perfectionism. But that excitement will go down. So it is a matter whether I want to continue practicing what I have learned so far.
Morning was tough to wake up and to do exercise. Reaching the office, it was also not easy to do one by one. Things that were not planned pop up both external and internally. External from the e-mail. Internal from the thought of doing something good that I have delayed quite long and only this morning I remember.
But it was a good progress. At least I chose to open my mailbox and faced the e-mail one by one instead of trying to dwell into the fear and escape from it. I tried to did things one by one and get the unit from the lab. Tested the one I have delayed for two days.
Afternoon was not easy as well as there was a discussion, a good one, but not planned. Then there was a celebration in the office where I learned to enjoy it. This is because by habit I will be stressed due to my tendency to be special and please people. So today I learned to just be myself, it is ok to be quiet and just observe the surroundings.
Once going back to office, it was also not easy as to decide which one first to do. At the end, I only did a little. But it was also good, can discuss for a while with colleague, and ask other colleagues on the questions I need.
My wife also fell sick today. So need to make the decisions. I took the risk to make decision on what to do. Also whether to go to lessons or not. And how to handle the worry whether she is ok. It is not the first time, so we just need to remember that this too shall pass.
There are still many things to be done. But it is fine, just do one by one, try to improve, but not to get perfect as a quote saying, being imperfect is perfectly human.
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