How long have you been doing this?

How long have you been doing this?

It just comes to a light that it is time to face one of my biggest problems: setting boundary.

It came up to my mind after losing control of my emotion three days ago. And while I am already aware of that problem, I just fell down again. I wanted to read football news only for 10 minutes, but end up I binged into a 47-minute of browsing and browsing trying to quench my emptiness and my desire to be fulfilled. Which is stupid as I am already blessed with many times. This shows the severity of the problem of boundary-less life. Slowly but sure it eats up our life and destroying whatever we have.

Now, let’s repeat the process of overcoming anxiety that started last January. If overcoming something that I have been doing for 8 years require patience and commitment, how even more they are to overcome something that I already have from childhood.

It’s hard, it’s tough, it’s almost impossible. But that is a real problem that I want to address. A problem frustrating enough to make a change. So practice the awareness when it creeps into my life like what happened just now; make commitment to get back up whenever I fall, ask whether it’s useful if I am just angry with myself; and find or create a small good habit to build up the ability to set boundary, bit by bit.