This morning when I woke up, I hate myself again. I just want to run away by keep sleeping and told myself I couldn't do anything good. After 20 minutes, I said to myself that perhaps to change myself is too difficult, but to wake up, to stretch for 5 mins, to take a shower, and to have breakfast is doable.
That is an example on how I over generalize things when I started to hate myself. If I ask why I hate, it's because the person I am is not up to my own standard.
There are some illusions there. First, it is as if I can't stand the feeling where actually it is not the first time. Second is because I want to change overnight. So when I couldn't see enough change, I start to hate myself. In other word, I think of the problem more than to think what I can do in that situation.
This requires humility to seek help and to acknowledge mistakes. However, it is not useful when I try to change overnight. I need to ask again what I can do to improve my humility instead of just hating my pride.
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