Being Patient is Hard

It is difficult to be patient. Whether it is to ourselves or to other people. Today I experienced both.

First is to myself. I want to do things faster but apparently the speed is not enough. It has improved a lot. It is just that it is not enough according to my standard. There are so many things on my to do list. Thank God that I am now not so stressed about them. At the same time, I still have the desire to complete them that it is still hard for me to let go and acknowledge that some won’t be able to be done as our time is limited and there are more important things to do.

Second is to others. I thought I am patient enough, apparently not. My friend told me why not presenting certain idea. I immediately brushed of by saying that even if I explain, people may not care or may not understand. Also, it takes time for people to understand, so if they are not interested, why bother to talk about them. It’s not wrong. It is just that I started to be shaped by my surroundings with some rules behind the assumptions. For example, last week I learned that people change. So it is not true that if they cannot understand now, there is no use to explain about the topic.

Also, it can be seen from my tone of voice. I started to be impatient as I am frustrated why people could not support my idea. It is okay if it is intended. But that one was without control. I did not want to but I was frustrated inside as I know my solution is not perfect, but I also don’t see other better solution. So I started to insist on my idea instead of being calm knowing that the solution will eventually come if we keep searching.

After this, I will revise my draft of paper. So let’s use it as a further practice of being patient.