It has been 10 days since the last time I wrote for 5 min. Apparently it is very hard to slow down and just to step back and write for 5 mins.
By God’s grace, I am thankful that I have been feeling positive in the past three and half weeks. At the same time, my brain keeps shooting for ideas or demanding myself to work that it is hard to slow down. If not for my wife, I would have slept later and wake up earlier than usual. It is thanks to her that I can let go doing things that I feel important to do.
It is also interesting on how my office mailbox continues to pile up. Somehow when I was down, I feel that I could follow my e-mail slightly better. If I don’t, it is because I am afraid. But now I am not afraid of the e-mails, but I become too busy and too obsessed with what I do that I don’t bother to check my e-mail.
The stomachache I have this evening somewhat reminds me to slow down. It is good during this period to write down what I feel and think so that when I am down next time, I have something to refer to. It is like writing an exhortation to my future self. At the same time, I could look back and reflect on what I was thinking when I felt down. Not everything was bad as well. For example, nowadays I feel too excited that I want to finish as many tasks as possible as if all must be done while the down period last time had shown that it is fine even when very few things get done. Because after all, we are not what we do, but our identity is in Christ Jesus who loves us and gave Himself for us.
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