By God’s grace, these past few days I feel happier. At the same time, I can start seeing on how difficult it is to fix on Jesus. There are many reasons to celebrate. For example, it has been quite long since I can feel happier and more focused. And is there any sudden change on my effort? No. This shows on how ultimately God is in control and not purely on our efforts. Yes, there is God’s grace in terms of my small efforts which show that our responsibility is to do our part and not focusing on the results.
However, I can start seeing how greedy I am. For the first two days of this week, I left my laptop in office as I acknowledge how limited my time is at home and even if there is work to do, I can do it using home laptop, more limited, but good enough. Yesterday and today I bring my laptop home. Last night I slept 1.5 hours later than my wife. In other word, I start to get addicted to working. To make things worse, my working may also involve tendency to help others or other people responsibility instead of working on my responsibility first.
For example, the two highest priority for today is left undone. So let’s focus on Jesus, not on my feeling good, but to do what I am called to or what He has entrusted me with. And celebrate His goodness instead of counting what is lacking. Remember that I could live in the past four months without much achievements, some days I could get zero things done. So do not think that I need to finish all or even finish a lot. Do what I can, be thankful and pray continually.
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