Yesterday and today I feel again the uncomfortable feelings of which I want to escape. I was angry to myself yesterday before dinner and another after dinner. This morning I delayed waking up several times that I missed the last shuttle bus to office without valid reason such as the need to watch my daughter last week. Then I felt inadequate when talking to colleagues as my programming skills have not improved over the years. Then I did not do much today in office. The last 2 hours was better but still I did not deliver any single item that was planned.
Then my best friend in office asked what is my time horizon for improvement when I complain I have been off in setting the planning in advance every night. I said at most within two months I wanted to improve which is already exceeded. So he reminded me that it can be in terms of years.
I guess that is one more thing to change my mindset. I often want to fix my issues first before performing certain tasks. So it is either improved soon or I don’t complete the tasks if otherwise. The more rational approach is to still do the tasks while the improvement is in progress including if the improvement is not yet observable. Just like my fellow believer in office said, I can still be crippled and move forward in God, just like Jacob did. So no need to wait until I am fully recovered. In fact remember the Word that God’s power is made perfect in our weakness.
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