Excited even when things are difficult

Recently I think about my counsellor’s suggestion to think on how I can stop and pause when I am excited. The reason is that when I am excited I tend to go on for long period of time in doing that when I am actually already busy with others and end up neglect those more important things. I mentioned to my counsellor that if I can pause such as take a deep breath and acknowledging both my desires and my responsibilities, I can re-prioritize and make decision with bearing the consequences in mind.

The problem is that how I can stop. One of the ways that work is the pomodoro technique where we give a small break every 25 minutes. Well it works for me but the frequency is perhaps less than half. Most of the time I either forgot to set the time or ignore when the 25 minutes is up.

Today I receive different perspective on this. My best friend in office asked me what if I am someone who tends to be excited? Do I have to deny myself which may end up to another crisis such as mid-life crisis asking who I really am? How about maintaining the excitement and deepning it to maintain the excitement when things are difficult. What he observed is that I am excited to do or go to certain destination. But when I reach that milestones of destination and see things are difficult, I will reverse the direction almost in the opposite instead of going to the direction that I wanted to go before. In other word, I can be excited, but excitement with grit. Just like this blog. When things are difficult such as time is running out like now, I tend to give up. So thank God that today I still managed to maintain the excitement to do 3x 5 minutes of duolingo and this 5 minute blog. And may I be reminded of what my friend says: we can be confident if we have a strong backing. So if God is with us, what are we afraid of? Perhaps we don’t feel afraid and feel more of ashamed or embarassment or something else, but perhaps down in our heart, at least in my heart, there is a fear that forgot that our God is bigger than anything.