Yesterday I was emotional again when receiving feedback from my colleagues. Again, I swing from feeling not being able to do anything to feeling being able to do everything. From I am always wrong to I am always right.
So when yesterday my colleague reminds me that I need to prepare for the business trip next week, I became upset. My pride got better of me. I thought I didn’t deserve to receive that kind of feedback since I felt I had improved a lot in the past one month. But this sounds familiar. Last April I also became angry when my wife and my best friend in office gave me a reminder. Thank God that yesterday I did not respond immediately and kept the thoughts inside my heart.
Today I realized how crucial that kind of feedback is. I had decided to focus on the aligned tasks first in the morning. Yet I had difficulty to meet the plan for finishing before lunch. I was rushing before lunch that at the end I just ate QQ rice. And although I came back from an event earlier than my colleague, I still could not finish what we targeted yesterday because of the new problems that I did not expect.
Well, I guess it’s time for me to apply the learning on how to receive feedback. To practice to depend on God and open for constructive feedback. Also, to adjust the expectation. Yesterday I planned to attend a whole day event today. But at the end I only went for two hours and it was already rushing to go back to complete my work.
As today is the 500th year from Reformation, may I remember that things may have been different if the critics were received. So I hope I can use this moment to make sure that I am open to the feedback God has granted instead of waiting for someone to nail on my heart.
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