On Trusting Myself

It is still very hard to trust myself. I already know that this is one of the root causes for my indecisiveness. I also watched a Korean medical drama where it said how can a patient trust the doctor if the doctor does not trust himself or herself. But it is still hard for me. Perhaps because I often hate myself when I am not satisfied with the reality of how I behave or perform. So how to trust someone whom we hate?

Instead of forcing myself to trust myself directly, I need to trust those whom I love. My wife said that I can do it and I am good enough despite my failures, so that is the one that I need to trust. It is also time to remember that God loves me and I can trust on Him. It is a lesson of humility to say that He is correct and I am wrong, such as my own perception of myself.

Like today, morning was very tough. In the afternoon it is also hard to see my messiness and how difficult it is to organize both my mind and my table. I was quite satisfied with me for keep asking people. But that is not the point. Because if I am satisfied because of my performance, it will just a matter of time before I am disappointed again. So learn to trust myself because God trust me. And my wife also trusts me. So the next time I hate myself, no need to focus on stop hating myself, focus on instead of the perception of those whom I trust.