Today it’s my first time opening my office laptop again after more than 2 weeks. It started with reluctance as the to-do list seems to be very long. But as I recall the counseling and tips from a lot of people that we need to do one by one, I could get started. Once started, it was quite good, I can write what’s in my mind and sent it out even when it is not perfect.
The problem came when there was a reply. I was being honest in my previous e-mail. And my colleague replied honestly expressing disagreement. There when all my ego came up. I think I am the one who is right. I think I am the one who is part of the initial efforts of the project. So my emotions get in the way and my mind is full of thoughts on how to argue even as I eat my dinner.
Thank God that I didn’t reply immediately. Thank God for the chance to watch Misaeng, the Korean drama with a lot of tips in working life. I started to ask myself, why was I so emotional. Was it my ego? What’s wrong with losing one stone as the game would still be on? Do I have to win everytime? Am I lazy to convince people who are not part of the initial vision all over again?
Because there is nothing wrong with disagreement. It is disagreement that shapes us and makes us a better person, at least a better communicator. So, there is no danger and when there is no danger, our head can be cool and our heart can be calm. There is also no need to be perfect in trying to express my argument. I just need to be calm, be honest on my thoughts and do not expect people’s reactions to be in my control.
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