Today I became unnecessarily emotional after 6 pm. The list of things to do is very long and I was doing well. I tried to prioritize one by one and let go certain things.
I spoke with many emotions during the global awareness program, but those are controlled emotions. And I was happy with that.
When I came back to my cube, my mentee asked for my time. I said not now because I need to have toilet break after finishing the course. Very good, I was able to be frank and firm.
The problem came when I met my friend whom I also want to mentor. I asked him whether he wants my frank comments and he agrees. Things were fine and I was able to control the time. But when I was about to leave, he was not that comfortable as he was still working. And I softened up, I failed to be firm. So at the end I became angry for myself because I didn't say no and stayed too much longer. Worse, because it is way too late, I assume that there is no bus and walked to the bus stop. The shuttle bus passed me later on which means I should have taken the shuttle bus. Then the public bus took very long. How dangerous a small slip of inability to be firm bring me.
In any case, I need to ensure that I don't make mistakes after mistakes. This means that there is no use of being angry to myself. What I can do now is to apply breathing exercise and move on knowing that the road is slippery and thus we need to be vigilant.
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