Embracing Challenges Again

Today is the first day after I commit myself to start over. As expected, things are not easy. I feel sleepy in the morning. And I was unsure what to do. I wrote a prayer, something I stopped for a week. It is not magic and so I still felt anxious. 

Likewise, it is very difficult for me to concentrate both during conference call and during free time. During lunch time I tried practicing focusing on the now rather than the worries I have in work.

It is still hard to check whatsapp and e-mail. It was also hard to keep writing as I dozed off in the middle. 

It was also not easy to make decisions when given the choice. Now it is sleepy again. I am not sure what will happen tomorrow. One thing for sure is that it is not easy but not as awful as I thought.

Restart the good habits

I have recently lost many good habits as I become anxious again. There is never an ending if I keep asking why I fall again into the trap of this cyclical anxiety. The more helpful is to find solution. And one of the solutions is to have small good habits. Because habits are hard to be broken. It is more feasible to replace bad habits with good habits instead of focusing on replacing the good habits. 

One of the good habit was to write in this blog daily. It does not aim to have a good article to write. The goal is to practice making decisions on what to write and do it with all the imperfection. 

The contents do not have to be good and detailed and inspiring. The goal is more of praticing how to organize our mind as it is easy to be lost at any given time. Another goal is to learn to break into bite size instead of wanting to tackle all things entirely at the same time. So let’s stop here first and be humble to restart or create new good small habits.