Today we went to River Safari and Singapore Zoo for the first time with our little one. We wanted her to have a nap in the morning, had lunch, and then go to the Zoo. But it did not happen. She was not willing to sleep in the morning. She only fell asleep during the taxi ride. As she was still asleep when we reached, we decided to go to River Safari as it is cooler. Just nice, she woke up just before we reached the Panda area. We took a break in Starbucks and continued to the Zoo. The zoo, as expected, is more challenging to visit as there is less shelter and some roads have upward slopes. That is when I learned to remember again that we did not have to go to all parts of zoo. We can still come back next time.
The question to ask is, am I cranky today. I think it is ok, but it can be improved. I was not angry but at the same time still anxious on various parts. I was thankful that my wife prepared all from our little one’s needs to my snack and bought sweet drinks so that I am less cranky. At the same time I felt bad as it seems to be tough on her. She is both physically and emotionally tired. This reminds me to the statement in a Korean drama. If I feel bad, then I need to pull myself together. Show with actions, with change. Remember that being angry to myself is useless. It does not fix anything. And worse, it shows that I only depend on my own strength and does not believe the grace from God that will come when we act in faith even when I can’t see any results and in the midst of failures.
